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: Pleasure turns to the pain, / Of the lessons learned from the strain, / Of the questions burned in my brain, / About whether to love is humane / In its touch. / These thoughts are like salmon / Swimming upstream / In the tears of your deceit, / Fighting the current hurt / That kills more than is created /By the chaos of our intertwined emotions: /Chaotic because the anchor / Of Eros’ arrow has been plucked from the vessel / Of my undying infatuation. / Separation not as simple as the distance between us, / My mind no longer possessed / By the demons / That had been the overseers / Of my enslavement to your lies. /The seeds of these lies, / Rooted so deeply /They have cracked the foundation / Of what we once shared, / Allowing the faith in us I had sealed inside / To gush out like a river, / Ripping the image of our future together / From my thoughts / As violently and as brutally / As if it were a child being taken / From his mother’s arms. / I’m left surrounded in darkness, / But I refuse to be swallowed by it, / My loneliness like the night air. / Invisible to the eye, oblivious to the touch, / In its cold uncomfortableness. / Yet if I could do it all over again, / I’d do it in the same skin I’m in. / To lay down and let love die, / Just stay down and let love lie: / No, no, not I. /I’ll stay ‘round and let love fly, / Even though I have seen its darkest form, deceit. / Nothing else could taste this warm / Or feel this sweet.
So my moms been sick for a while now like two weeks she’s been in the hospital , last night I went to go see her and when I first glanced at her I started crying my eyes out , I stopped quick and that was that but later when I got home I don’t know what came over me I started just started thinkin about my mom and the tears start flowing again. Anyways when I went to sleep I had a dream about my old bestfriend I think it maybe a sign to try and reach out to her , in my dream I was jogging and I seen her but knowing we weren’t cool anymore I ran past her and didn’t say anything idk how but she caught up with me and my sadness I felt before I went to sleep was gone we hugged and made up it was one of the best dreams I ever had . I want to reach out to her but I don’t want to get dissed I guess I’ll take that chance .
My bestfriend
So I’m going to tell the story of my bestfriend from beginning to end. When I was in high school I met a girl named Jessica I ended up catching feelings for her , took her on a date and everything but she had feelings for my cousin instead and it hurt me , so much so that because of that I hated her with all my heart I would physically and mentally abuse her. Mainly physically though I used to take my anger out on her and beat her till she was bruised up. Then after a while of that I just couldn’t stand her the hate in my heart was too overwhelming. So a couple years go by and we didn’t talk but one day I had like 2 or 3 dreams about her so I felt like I needed her back in my life , I take my dreams seriously because they are so vivid and meaningful. Well I hit her up and after a while of talking we became best friends I no longer felt the hate in my heart she melted it away with her friendship. At the height of our friendship she was a loner and I was a loner so we just had each other to talk to , and I loved it. But then she started making new friends and pulling away from me so it felt like , we weren’t as close as before. So on twitter I tweeted fuck bestfriends knowing she would read it , we then got into a argument that officially ended our friendship. That was quite possibly one of the biggest regrets I have in life. I then Voxered her a 8 minute message didn’t get a reply , I wrote her a long text that got a short reply. So I texted her a week after the argument and asked if we would ever be cool like how we were before and she said probably not. That was all I needed to hear I knew I couldn’t fix this so I gave up. That is where I stand at the moment.
Kyle XY
So I don’t know if you’ve seen the show Kyle xy but seriously the girl who plays amanda on there is absolutely one of the most gorgeous females I’ve ever laid my eyes on. And I’ve seen alot of girls lol but her appearance looks so pure and innocent , I want my future wife to be somewhere along the lines of that.
